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InViSiBLe_MiRaGe
The most beautiful make-up of a woman is passion.
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Family, Friends, Allies, Foes, Believers, Doubters, Ladies and Gentlemen, I stand before you today a success of yet another life changing endeavor. I stand before you as a testimonial memorial of perseverance, dedication, and devotion. I stand triumphant over the raging rivers of life. Beaten and bullied by the waves of failure, yet here I stand! Often slammed against the rocks of slander on the shores of envy, but kept on track by the encouraging voice of The Most High. At times I was drenched by the rains of self-doubt and I found myself staring down the barrel of digression, but a preserved wisdom would rise to regenerate my self-belief and renew my decomposing self-image so still I stand. I once stood as a scapegoat of the shortcomings of my peers and accused of drowning in the sea of passivity, but those that cross bridges that will never be built are doomed to drown in the saliva that fell from their mouths as they anticipated my failures. Due to my gender and skin tone I have been presumed incompetent by the unrelenting gestures of America. But led by the spirits of my ancestral predecessors I have escaped the traps of that stereotypical predestined path and so I stand as an example and not a statistic. Although debilitating and grinding adversity would amplify my struggles and attempt to chain me to the lowest rung of the economic ladder, the encouraging words of a loving mother and the supporting presence of friends and family would allow me to demonstrate an overcoming characteristic genetically implanted by those that stood where I now stand. My recent accomplishments are but a fragment of the test of times. There will come a day when again I would be faced with depleted self-confidence. Again I will be reclined in the path of adversity. Another time will come when I am exhausted by the blows of injustice. I will have to endure the storms of a system designed for my annihilation again and again. And I will again be standing in the fires of slander and ridicule. Oh but when the smoke clears I will be seen standing with my feet planted firmly against the Earth's crust and knees strengthened by my will to go on and my head lifted to receive further guidance from God Almighty. I will be seen STANDING! I stand, as a product of the Kings and Queens of Great Africa. I stand, for the unyielding inspiration of little black girls and little black boys. I stand, in the doorway keeping the doors of opportunity from closing. I stand, for every man and every woman that said it couldn't be done. I stand, as an exception to the American rule. I stand, for the struggle endured by my slave ancestors. I stand, as my sister and brother's keeper. I stand, as a voice for the braided heads and sagging pants of the ghettos. I stand, as the potential of my incarcerated black men and black women. For equality, I stand. For justice, I stand. For righteousness, I stand. For truth, I stand. In the Name of the Heavenly Father, I stand. Victoriously, I-Stand! |
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I affirm that knowledge is power and power is responsibility. I acknowledge that although I am grown in accordance to my age, I have lots of growing yet to do. I am becoming increasingly aware that personal growth is continual and never ending. I understand that in order to grow, I must be open to new possibilities. I must keep in mind that growth is obtained through knowledge...and knowledge is acquired through people, places, things and the situations around me. I'm aware that being open is essential to growing and thus it is necessary in order to both start and continue my personal growth journey. From this day on i will longer try to do anything because trying leaves room for errors and excuses. I will instead make every attempt to foster growth in all areas of my life. Finally, I acknowledge that if it isn't growing it is dead....and it died for a reason. |
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Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a gold mine you are, Doesn't mean you shine any less. Just because no one has been smart enough to figure out you can't be topped, doesn't stop you from being the best. Just because no one has came along to share your life, doesn't mean that day isn't coming. Just because no one has made the race worthwhile, doesn't give you permission to stop running. Just because no one has realized how much of an awesome woman you are, doesn't mean they can affect your femininity. Just because no one has shown up who can love you on your level, doesn't mean you have to sink to theirs. Just because you deserve the very best there is, doesn't mean that life is always fair. Just because GOD is still preparing your king, doesn't mean that you aren't already a queen. Just because your situation doesn't seem to be progressing right now, doesn't mean you need to change a thing. Keep shining, keep running, keep hoping, and keep praying. Keep being exactly what you are....COMPLETE! |
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I am deserving. I deserve all good.
Not some, not a little bit, but all good. I now move past all negative, restricting thoughts. I release and let go of the limitations of my parents. I love them, and I go beyond them. I am not their negative opinion, nor their limiting beliefs. I am not bound by any of the fears or prejudices of the current society I live in. I no longer identify with limitation of any kind. In my mind, I have total freedom.
I now move into a new space of consciousness,
where I am willing to see myself differently.
I am willing to create new thoughts about myself
and about my life.
My new thinking becomes new experiences. I now know and affirm that I am at one with the
Prospering Power of the Universe.
As such, I now prosper in a number of ways.
The totality of possibilities lies before me.
I deserve life, a good life.
I deserve love, an abundance of love.
I deserve good health.
I deserve to live comfortably and to prosper.
I deserve freedom to be all that I can be.
I deserve more that that.
I deserve all good. The Universe is more than willing to manifest my new beliefs.
And I accept this abundant life with joy, pleasure, and gratitude.
For I am deserving.
I accept it; I know it to be true |
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So, on Nightline on ABC (or whatever show happened to be on the tele just a few minutes ago) there was some report about how the brits are ginger/red head phobic. At first, listening to it, I really thought of it as nothing but rubbish, (I don't know when I started saying words like tele and rubbish...maybe its this brit themed community) but then it made me think of a conversation I had with an english friend of mine a few years back. *Enter in cloudy, dream sequenced fog* We were talking about, well I don't remember. And I mentioned something about her possibly liking a guy, and she said something about his feet and not to mention, he had "gingery hair". It didn't phase me much then, but now...I wonder. So, do you brits find it true, either in general or in the people you surround yourself around, even if you may not be phobic in your own lives? |
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Sometimes I sit (or in this case, lay) and wonder. That sounds like a very vague and broad statement, but it sort of is, for reasons unexplainable to me. For the life of me, I sometimes don't understand why there is such a need for me to look so deep into things, to dig so deep that when i'm finally done, I've possibly dug myself into a deeper hole than the situation or problem in and of itself has called for. And sometimes after all that digging, I'm still left with no solution, no answer, nothing left to say but "why"?
With such a want and need to constantly write about things, even to this day, I am constantly vague when it comes to people, places and things (I guess the nouns) in my life. I've now come to the realization, that in most cases, I am really nothing but literal talk. I talk about being outspoken, bold and well, a lot of things, but even that is all just words when it is all said and done. And it's basically impossible for words to mean anything when all the words thought aren't words said, even when words may hurt someone.
Reading that quote yesterday about doing drunk what you'd do sober because it'll teach you to keep your mouth shut, definetly rang a bell in my head. Because it has come to the point where, only while being drunk would I even dare CONSIDER saying and admitting some of the things that are prevalent in my normal, everyday life. And even then, at my drunkest moment, I am always fearful of the possible repercutions of my words. Not because they will hurt select people, but because they will more than likely, in turn hurt me due to reaction of said words.
All my life (or at least for a good portion), I've always known that I was different. Yes, of course, everyone is different, but in most cases not so different that they are looked at as lesser of a person for being so...different. Everything from my short stature to my obvious inabilities to do seemingly simple things most people take for granted and everything in between, affects me in my everyday life. And it would be undeniably naive of me to think that people don't see it, notice it, question it, because I know I do it myself. But even those things are only a grain of sand in the beach that is me. That is not to say that other things that make me "different" are any less or more important than that, in fact, nothing about me is more or less important than anything else, but with one thing specifically, unless you were told, you'd have no idea. Maybe it is better that way, but sometimes (like now) I feel like that is me, being me half-assed. By outward apperance, I am different enough, and to willingly make it known I am more different than what is seen outwardly, could possibly be friendship suicide, and there mere thought of that alone just kills me.
I don't know why I wrote this or why I am posting it, I guess I just figure that I need to vaguely get a couple things off my chest. |
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"Never regret anything because at one time...it was exactly what you wanted." "Being happy doesn't mean you're perfect it means you've looked past all the imperfections." "The greatest challenge in life is finding someone who knows all your flaws, differences and mistakes, and still loves you with everything they have." “As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.” ~Anonymous~ "It is impossible for a man to learn what he thinks he already knows."
-Epictetus "Knowing others is intelligence. Knowing yourself is wisdom"
-Lao Tse "We must be able to accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope"
- Martin Luther King Jr. "Equality is still a goal, not a reality" "What would you attempt if you knew that you could not fail?"
-Robert Schuller "Love-it surrounds every being and extends slowly to embrace all that shall be"
-Kahil Gibran "I hope our wisdom will grow with our power and teach us that the less we use our power, the greater it will be" -Thomas Jefferson "Life is like a game of cards. The hand you are dealt is determinism; the way you play is free will"
- Jawaharlal Nehru "Love is the master key which opens the gates of happiness"
-Oliver Wendell Holmes "Beauty is truth, truth beauty. That is all ye know on earth and all ye need to know"
-Keats "Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination a bottling the common sense"
-Helen Rowland "Be a life long or short, it's completeness depends on what it was lived for."
-David Starr Jordan "The heart has reason that reason does not understand"
- Jaques benigne Bossuel "To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives your courage"
-Lao Tse "Love is, above all, the gift of oneself."
-Jean Anouilh "Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save."
-Will Rogers "Success isn't a result of spontaneous combustion. You must set yourself on fire."
-Arnold H. Glasgow "You don't get to choose how you're going to die or when. You can only decide how you're going to live"
-Joan Baez "Go confidently in the direction of your dream, live the life you've imagined"
-Henry David Thoreau "Don not inflict your will. Just give love. The soul will take that love and put it where it can best be used."
-Emmanuel "Life becomes harder for us when we live for others, but it also becomes richer and happier"
-Albert Schweitzer "We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."
-Joesph Campbell "Absense sharpens love, presence strenghtens it."
-Benjamin Franklin Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are... |
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Figured it was time for me to update again since it's probably been ages since I last REALLY update. Nothing new really. My head hurts....just got it done....beauty=pain, I guess. Jade's supposed to be coming here tomorrow...it would be nice if she called to let me know what's going on because I really just got my hair done to see her....oh, that and we may be goin to chrome tomorrow or the open call modeling thing on Saturday. I want to go back to school. Ok, not really. I just miss my friends and it hasn't even been 2 months yet. How the hell i'm going to pay for next semester is beyond me since I have no job and doesn't seem like i'll be getting one anytime soon because people are dicks and discriminate no matter if they're "obligated by law" or not. I miss psych. No, not the class. But I refuse to get into that here and now. I'm hungry...time to go find something to eat. |
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Here are a few things to think about that you probably have never thought about: -Can you cry under water? -How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered? -If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches? -Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round? -Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to? -Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity? -Why does a round pizza come in a square box? -What disease did cured ham actually have? -How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage? -Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake-up like every two hours? -If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing? -If you drink Pepsi at work in the Coke factory, will they fire you? -Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV? -Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground? -How come we choose from just two people for President and fifty for Miss America? -Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see
you naked anyway. -If a 911 operator has a heart attack, whom does he/she call? -Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural? -Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet soup? -Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat? -Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer? -When your photo is taken for your driver's license, why do they tell you to smile? If you are stopped by the police and asked for your license,
are you going to be smiling? -If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him? -Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane? -If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat? -Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs! -What do you call male ballerinas? -Can blind people see their dreams? Do they dream? -If Wyle E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner? -If corn oil is made from corn and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from? -If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons? -Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse? -Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune? -Why did you just try singing the two songs above? -Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?
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CAN KISS MY ASS! Short and simple....straight to the point. |
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